Are u lost?

I know it's weird but getting the news first thing today when i woke up marred my spirits. I feel kinda.. lost. hm. not that I know what songs there were in the best-seller Thriller, but i know a few lyrics of Heal The World, okay.

We all grew up in his era. He is a pervasive culture. Just like MacD.

if u wake up 1 day with news that MacD has gone bankrupt, and closed down overnight, taking away all the secret-reciped french fries and nuggets, how'd u feel?

Lost, right? Ya lor..

i find that i can sit in front of my lappie for 6 hours straight just replying emails, scanning facebook, scrolling down the msn contact list, replying a random chat, checking my inbox again, scanning facebook, scrolling down msn, replying randomly...

woah. i'm a nerd or wat.

n it's wed night.

in vietnam.

sigh.

Found an accquaintance blog and am so inspired by her writings. no no preaching no chants just her ramblings. she's random. and i like it.

how random can i be?

From Dusk til Dawn

It has been a tumultuous journey with Edward and Bella.

From Twilight to New Moon to Eclipse to Breaking Dawn. It does help tremendously my imagination fitting the images of the beautiful on-screen leads with those in my books, especially - as if timed perfectly - I saw the poster for New Moon the week I began the book on this 2nd installment of the series outside Lido. And I visit Orchard perhaps 3 times a year. Or lesser.

I started to wonder how long more the story can have my attention as I ventured into the 2nd book. The focal injection of Jacob Black ( the name always reminds me of Joe Black dunno why ), whose on-screen persona I had imagined can be more delicious (contrary to reviews), had certainly upped the entertainment value of the series.

Like the usual story-telling gimmicks, New Moon was a tad boring as compared to the other 3. It was meant to be a build up. Think Harry Potter episode 4.

But once you get through it, expect a whirlwind.

Bella continuous humanly cockups get you frustrated. Her discovery of the love for Jacob makes you perplexed. The involvement of the Volturi sends chills down your spine. The reveal of Alice’s, Jasper’s and Rosalie’s backgrounds opens your eyes. The relentless pursuit from Victoria causes u anxiety.

And then, the annihilation of Victoria brings relief. The warming up of Rosalie to Bella stirred feelings of affection. The engagement of Edward and Bella sends love.

Reading becomes unstoppable.

You want to know whether Jacob gets unrequited love (even tho u know the answer in your heart). You want to know whether Bella becomes a vampire (even tho it’s obvious the direction towards the middle of the 4th book). You want to know if the baby gets birthed (even tho you bite your teeth and shake your head on the torture Bella went through). You want to know whether the Volturi gets defeated (even when you had caught a glimpse of the last chapter that says Happily Ever After).

Now I just want to see how Carlisle and Esme and Jasper and Alice and Rosalie and Emmet and Sam and Emily and Leah and Seth and Aro and Jane and Alex and Tanya and Eleazar, AND RENESMEE (whose name I’ve tried mind-mouthing it to not very good success) look like. Cant wait.

We Love BLACK ANGEL

You see you see!

See la Chub! play fastest fingers first ah. first call first win ah. siao. so impatient for wat. dunno how to control ah. cause people to react so violently. cause people to lose 1 source of entertainment. even tho they say it's a blessing in disguise also dun think u've done a good deed lor. alamak. bleah. reflect!

Only when it's gone

There was a sense of loss when the realization struck. Somethings you just don't realise it when it's there. you assumed it will always be there. i never thought i'll actually feel something.

5 years of proximity and interaction, i actually felt weird when CollA mentioned CollS' gone.

some people, some things, you'll realise only when it's gone..

My Name is Cherelle Lee Le En...

..and I have an Yiyi who smiles to herself everytime she thinks of me! MUAH!

You read Nora Roberts' The Dream Trilogy?

I use the first 2 pages of a book to determine whether i'll carry on reading and NR's style of writing is so intricate it's very easy to follow. This Dream Trilogy appeals so much to me coz I have my own 3-in-a-clique gangs too. 2 in fact, with 1 member-overlap. venn diagram. ha.

I can identify with the 'friendship' structure' within. Each book follows 1 of the 3 main characters - Margo, Kate and Laura. It's a love story for each and every book ends with a proposal of a kind for the female lead. No i am not hinting, i'm way beyond that. i'm quite a sucker for romance novels la.

I can feel how they feel for one another. The sisterly love within. My dearies are really just like my own - and that gives me 6 sisters in all - except that because we started out as friends, we are a lot more cordial and expressively-loving than that within my own traditional family.

I like to talk about how I feel. I vent my anger. I show my frustration. I'm expressive. I feel a sense of balance from these 'internal' and 'external' sisterships.

I love them all.

A. WARE BEWARE NOWHERE!

Name me 1 person in Singapore who isnt A. WARE of the most popular drama playing out now? 24 hours, LIVE (hey i am sure they rehearse their responses/comments/spats/justifications/gungho-ism in their dreams k!) Reading through the daily reports - gives me a sense of home as they resemble the daily exchange of ideas (read:words) between my 2 cute office cleaning aunties - i cant help but recall my days back in Hall, spotlight JCRC.

Did it all seem so silly then to people watching us on the sidelines? As we argued red-faced which comm deserved to be Super Major? Which Major Comm Chair doesnt deserve the Major points? Whether Minor Secretarial Comm has done so much out of just taking minutes we might just wish to consider awarding Intermediate status?

Man.. saying the terms now makes me giggly.. hehehe..those were the days..ahhh..

Seriously, as I am fully A. WARE of my gender, I feel damn paisei. Are they actually A. WARE of the shame they are putting on themselves and how everyone who's A. WARE of this is making a joke out of it?

Did I actually hear someone being A. WARE of a DBS Executive?

And someone foruming that HE (as gender wasnt specified, i hope against hope there arent only bimbos) will stop using DBS issued credit cards and considering to stop banking at all with DBS?

Poor DBS. So poor thing.

Pardon my spelling above. This drama is so top-hot that I wish to avoid my blog turning up within the Golden Triangle on gOgE or TacKnowRaTee just by having someone searching for the major..i mean magic, word. Or does it actually help???Shit.

I am sohappysohappysohappysohappysohappysohappy!
i'm gonna be at H.O.M.E - HOME Singapore HOME on Labour Day
which is a PH
which is a FRIDAY!

YAYAYAYAYAyyyyyy I promise I will KILL anyone who destroys this for me. I will!

Go Away.

Hope Baby Cousin gets well soon.
Hope Auntie don work it up again
Hope Uncle can accept the reality soon and god bless the family.

bad news came like a rush today when I finally return to my peaceful motherland that I have grown to really appreciate. Esp so after this trip to Incredible I.

All the bad things GO AWAY.

Ken just gave me the number of the station manager in AMD airport. a singaporean. i'll have a singaporean to accompany for dinner at least. still a lil bleah, but woohoo.

Dread

No I don't think it's unfair. It's my job and there's my mantra.

But tomorrow (today in fact) is such a perfect harmony of public hol + Ma's off day + dj-has-a-car day, and I have to board a 7.30am flight.

It's late, i'm tired but I cant bear to go to bed. I watched tv. I lazed on the sofa. I bathed late. I washed the long overdue clothes. I folded clothes. I packed my luggage (finally). Only to realise I'm simply creating the illusion that I'm spending the holiday in Sg; i'm spending it at home. yay. bleah.

Alas, I'm missing out all the family fun and I dun like it one bit. It doesnt help tt i'm reminded of the 6 hours transit later on - I could have finished 3 pieces of prata w them, y am I wasting it in Mumbai? Argh. Bleah.

What else is there to do?

Blogging at this 3am because I had just finished the whole series of Kotboda Namja. In the 2nd last episode when Joon Pyo recalled Jandi, I teared. Ok wat's new for Chub right. But i just had to. Following this whole series starting from Vietnam - i chanced upon the 1st episode on the KBS channel in the unexpected city of Hanoi, recognised it as the F4 show within 2 secs and the rest is history. The show brought me on an emotional roller coaster ride, and now it's over.

i always lament towards the ending of my then-favourite show; while in the last pages of my then-favourite novel, that I will have nothing to do when i finish them. I always try to drag a little on purpose. Pause to go take that milo from the fridge; challenging myself to stand properly without my book for once on the train; willing myself to forget putting the book back into my bag before leaving the house to work. etc etc.

I finished Silent Sisters this afternoon. I completed KN series moments ago. Now, tell me where my heart can go. I have nothing else to do and I feel a little lonely.

Until the next one comes along that is.

Chub has to blog this now because Chub is very pissed off.

A shortie got onto the usual airport taxi in Hanoi airport and fished out the usual dong waiting for the change at the destination. Then she was slapped with the info that the charges are higher because it is a bigger car. Shortie does not rem that this is a fact and so Shortie argued. Shortie refused to get off the car. Driver took down the luggage and tried to drive off with Shortie in it. Shortie was adamant and left the door open while Driver drove off. Driver got off and tried to close the door and shouted at Shortie. Shortie used her left leg to block the door and got hurt in process. The shopowners and customers of at least 5 shops gathered and watched the saga. Shortie gave up and got down the car.

The above saga all for the total of 20000 dong more. Won't tell u the exchange rate, find out yourselves.

Damn stupid. damn damn stupid. Chub is very angry now with Shortie. Shortie is damn stupid to attempt such a thing. Shortie is in foreign land and at the hotel she always stays in. Did Shortie stop for a moment to think of the possible consequences and future repurcussions? Shortie simply wasnt using her brains.

And Shortie had the knack to cry in hotel room. Yes she was traumatised. but she deserved it.

bleah.

And i spent money again!

not for myself k. Was out looking for dresses for Pumpkin and lo and behold, the shop that I had been religiously eyeing had to close on a Saturday! Sigh. I went there in the rain ok - Pumpkin i tried! You have to wait til the next time already i guess.

ended up going to the shop BESIDE and bought 2 tops for Ma. very nicely embroidered. It's funny why i never flinch when it's buying things for loved ones. it's in USD. don't even ask me how much. Just that i will prob think for a few weeks before parting with the money if it was for myself.

ok. fine. i did buy a ring. and a scrunchy. 2. ok fine, 4.

but it was only 1 buck each! usd tho.

IBox135

My favourite spot in this ice cream parlour with attractive pink tables and flowery paintings, is the extreme corner beside the window. The name itself is subtly misleading as I kept remembering the address as 135 when it's actually 133 Hai Ba Trung, though it's literally next door anyway. Come if you drop by HCMC.

I have never tried the ice cream here, for irony's sake. But i'm not a fan naturally. It just gives serenity. Perhaps everytime i'm here, it'll be the last day before I return home. Everytime i'm here, this corner is always available. Everytime i'm here, it'll be before one of the very slight breaks I can take in between a long one. Or ones this time.

I came here to do my usual. But I am distracted this time. I couldnt take my eyes of Twilight. I am mesmerised by Edward Cullen, intrigued by Isabella Swan. I think i'll name my future son Edward. Cant decide if Isabella's too much of a mouthful for Ma though.

Chub switches between being sanguine to baleful recently.

Happiness always sets in naturally when L calls. I can tell myself, when I start gushing in our limited time what I did today, whether i farted or not. Smiles set in when images of my loved ones flash across randomly. Was simply clicking on all past pictures in my battled laptop and i couldnt help cracking up. Some even made me laugh out loud, only to induce self-consciousness immediately when there was no usual human-like responses within the 4 walls of my elusive hotel room. ( i swear i will faint if there is any anyway)

Reading Twilight's an enjoyment too. I will not be writing this if not for my logical self winning the mental debate on whether my eyes are too strained or not. Already, I cannot stare properly at breakfast. Yesterday's night marathon reading left me slightly cross-eyed. I suspect though that this unusual logical win is also because of the current development of the story i'm getting to. Bella is now being persued by The Tracker. And who says staring at the computer makes it better!

and so I stared out of the window. and was prompted. I am one soulful being who likes to think - albeit not the very sane thoughts mostly. and i now think as i type.

I am not sure i'm ready, to be honest. MY says she believes i am. but am i? yes i'm a leo, but not the extreme typical type. Just typical. i love to be the centre of attraction, but only when i'm comfortable. Not the other way round like for extreme ones. I know i like to lead, but only when i'm confident. Am i now? I dun even know how to breakdown the annual report! (and i just don't have the zest of life right now to re-pick up my Ten Day MBA).

i'm thinking hard. so hard i dun wanna click on Overseas Trip and start entering my report. I just want to think. hard. how will I restructure? how can we re-arrange? how do I allocate? how will i be? maybe HH is right. The fact lies that i'm young. 5 years is not a long corporate life.

It'll work out fine i guess. it always had been. I'm the kind who responses. after all, moving up at such speed over the years must have desensitized me quite a bit. But somehow this time's different. I'm getting the feeling of crossing over from Sec to JC all over. This is a huge jump.

i'm suddenly very aware.

The Doraemon Story

Once upon a million times, Chub was on the plane to Vietnam and got bored as usual. Suddenly she remembered a prized possesion in her bag.

Tata! It's a box of Doraemon Chewys!

WOW. there's even a Shiny Card. How COOL is that???
Chub opens the wrapper.
Mmm. YUMMY!

Thank you Auntie! ;)

L's Place

I Came. I Saw. I Conquered.

i must admit my 10.9 secs ride was expensive.

7 storeys.

Chub's brave!