With enough experience you'll realize medical science might be overrated. Everyone's constitution is different. U nvr know what reacts to what in whose body. Or what was already present within which organ. It's all down to experiments. Guesswork at most. Good docs guess correctly. Bad docs, good luck to the patients.

I lie here on my bed wondering what this holiday did to me.

A HK$500 lesson.

It's been on my mind since n I can't shake it off just yet.

Was outside Wong Tai Sin temple when an elderly woman walked up to us n shove a packet of joss sticks onto Sis. Pissed off at the aggression, I told Sis we will not buy.

It was only after we walked off that Sis said she is asking for only hk$10.

In my heated moments I had assumed she will surely rip us off. After all the joss sticks are free in the temple, so ANY amount is a rip off anyway. But hk$10?? Really?? I had a chance to walk back n buy from her. I didn't.

A sharp tinge of guilt n shame surged. What have I done?

It was Typhoon Signal 3 hoisted. Ah Ma was most probably earning her lunch. And maybe dinner.

Bad judgement calls. Bad Chub.

Serves her right to slot in the hk$500 note to the charity box in the temple when she had intended only 50.

Even Deity Wong can't stand Chub then.

I ask Chub why she can't live n let live.

Because all relationships need maintenance.

Because this is not Mary, Susan or Lucy.

Because this has a place in her heart.

N she's hurt.

Attunement.

Give it time.

Not angry anymore

But better to stay this way.

Think positive. Keep busy.

I remember:)

不知道是否对号入坐,总觉得所听的每首歌都好似讽刺、好似恰逢所以。

应该就这样了吧。

也好。

也罢。

不哭不闹从容面对

嘟女长大了。

U know it when it's only lip service n an email out of perceived duty.

Better than being left high n dry.

You'll get used.

It's unfathomable how much power n energy mere words can give a female in love.

The world isn't a happy one recently.

May The One above bless those in NZ. The casualties are high. Those images are heartwrenching.

N then that. Move n circulate.

Heed the advice.

Mum flipping the evening papers;

Dad competing with the noisy fan;

Pumpkin typing away at the lappy;

PLS yakking away on her iphone;

PBS at her usual 'pop out for a while'.

mundane scenes at home.

but doesnt one love mundane at times?

Chub could have been more gracious tonight n send waigong home. Nvm about uncle pulling stunt again. Nvm about who is pretending or not.

Chub could have been more understanding towards how waipo feels about getting taxis to send waigong.

Siyi is indeed incredible. One senior everyone must truly emulate after.

Chub needs to mature better.

Chubby is sleeping somewhere.

Wake her up please!

Searching for the fitting nook to settle in.
It'll take time.
Meanwhile, move along.

Everyday
You check the clock
You check the weather.
You check the emails inbox.

And you check your choice of words.

What are these for, Chub?

You were angry.
You were sad.
You were sick.
You were down.

Who was there?

You were careful this moment.
You threw caution the next.

What are the norms you wish to observe?

Do not disturb.

一个人旅行的确会寂寞。
等机的时候、搭机的时候。

但有时一个人独自在＂寂＂静中＂寞寞＂思考,也不愧为件自我思维提升的素质发展。

这，就让它寂寞吧。

Am i going to expect the same for Thailand next week?
Same trip, same place, different feel?

There are really so many things to learn.
So many things that can be done.

The world is damn huge.

Chub must have caught a cold here in Vietnam.
And with the early mornings and late nights.
Serious entertainment is really no joke.

Chubwannagohome.

失意的时候不在你身边，有着自己的事要忙。

说与不说两者之间不知如何取舍。

是注定还是犯贱。

急需与我共勉之！

It's been a year since I stepped into Korea.
What a different view. And a different feel.

it's always the most unexpected moments that you pluck lessons from.

U'll realise what it means by experience; what it means by exposure; and what it means to have been blind.

there shld be happiness the way things turned out, but the tussle on the other spectrum is real.

it was lousy.
Reflect, Chub.

When u meant A n the response was B. U probably know what's happening. Some things are better left unsaid.

Just let it drift.

Will be easier.